Tuesday, November 2, 2010

My Epiphany...

In five months, I've lost 53 lbs.  I'm proud of myself, but it seems like I still have so far to go.  I am just now, this week, starting to see the physical changes in my body.  I know others have been seeing my body change for months now, but my self-image is only now starting to shift.  And only in small ways.  Sometimes I'll catch a split-second glimpse of myself in the mirror and realize my hips are smaller or my face is thinner.  But its very subtle.  I don't see the drastic changes that others see.  I usually don't believe people when they say things like, "I hardly recognized you!" or "You are just getting so SMALL!".  I think they're just trying to make me feel better.  *shrug*  I guess I'm a little more insecure than I thought.

So back to my ephiphany...

I've lost 53 lbs and I'm down from 297 lbs. to 244 lbs.  My "I'll-be-happy-with-anything-from-here-on-down" goal is 180 lbs.  "How much more," I wondered, "do I have to lose to hit my goal?".  So I did the math.
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64 lbs.  Sixty-four pounds.  SIXTY-FOUR FREAKING POUNDS!!  I've lost 53 and I only have 64 to go!!  How is it possible that I'm almost half-way there?!  I've been running the numbers through my head over and over again for the last 18 hours and I keep coming up with the same answer!! 

Its been like a lightbulb switched on in my head.  I'm making progress.  And not just a little progress, but MAJOR progress.  I've made a major change in my lifestyle that is changing my entire life fro
m top to bottom.  I look different (even if only to others right now), I feel different, and I AM different.

Its been a pretty intense 18 hours, my friends.  Here's to half-way there!!!!!

3 comments:

  1. Congratulations, Jenny. You are doing really well to be losing over 10lbs per month. I will be sooo happy if I lose at that rate. Enjoy the moment!

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  2. *raises a glass*

    Here's to you! You are almost halfway there. You will be at your goal before you know it. :D

    Those danged fat goggles are a real biotch, aren't they? I have lost nearly 80 pounds, so far. Others say they see the difference. I only get flashes. I am told that in time it gets better, tho. :)

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  3. You made me smile with this post. I have been doing my numbers in my head as well. It is amazing. My oldest sister saw me a couple of weeks ago and said you are getting small. This same sister told another sister that I really look good. Sometimes I can't see it and other times I can. I am trying to kick my WL up to 10lbs a month so I can hit goal by May. You are doing wonderfully, keep up the GREAT work!!

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