I haven't had much to blog about. Mostly because I haven't been able to make sense of my thoughts enough to be able to put them into words. But I think I'm ready.
The whole way up to the keyhole, Liz and I were talking about our struggles to lose weight (she's doing it the old-fashioned way and KILLING it, btw). We talked about how we've let our weight hold us back from doing so many things and how we use phrases like, "When I lose the weight..." and "Someday when I'm thinner...". I had never hiked Devil's Backbone before. Not because I don't like the outdoors or because I am afraid of the snakes that lurk on the trails, but because I thought I was too fat to do it. So instead I sat on my fat ass and ate more and got fatter and got further and further away from doing any of the things I've wanted to do.
We talked about how the hike wasn't nearly as hard as we thought it would be. And how we surprised ourselves with how well we did. We talked about the realization that NOT doing these kinds of things was just an excuse to stay unhealthy. And that if we waited until we "lost the weight" to do things, we'd never get there! And one point Liz even turned her cellphone camera on me and recorded me saying what I'm sure were very profound things (lol). I realized that for literally the first time in 29 years, I am taking control of my physical health and well-being. I am an active participant in my own life. And I am the only one that can determine whether I will succeed of whether I will fail. If I can hike Devil's Backbone for the first time at 271 lbs. I can sure as hell do anything else I put my mind to!