Helly. My name is Jenny and I'm a fat chick.
((altogether now... "Hi Jenny..."))
In true Fat Chick fashion, I've been pushing my band's limits these last few days. I've lost almost all of my restriction (going in on 7/22 for my first fill) and because I'm still so new at this lap-band thing, I'm falling back into old habits.
I've been eating at night again. That's probably my Numero Uno bad habit besides portion control. The kids go to bed at 9pm, DH is at work, and I eat. Its something that I have avoided these past few weeks, but have started to fall back into again. It must stop.
I haven't been eating my protein. I know I'm going to regret this in a LOT of ways. And I know not getting enough protein is going to keep me hungrier. I need to get back on the protein wagon.
I haven't been listening to my band when it tells me "enough is enough". Yesterday I broke down and had a bagel with peanut butter on it. I know bagels, for the bandster, are the devil's work. But I wanted to see if I could do it. And damnit, I REALLY wanted some peanut butter! So I toasted my bagel, topped it with delicious PB and ate it. And no, I didn't not eat it slowly. And I did not take small bites. And when I started to get "that feeling" I just waited a minute or two for it to pass and kept right on going. Even when I knew I was too full.
*hanging head in shame* I'm such a cliche. Could I BE more of a fat chick?
Anywhoozles... today is a new day. And I have two more weeks until my first fill and I REFUSE to un-do all the work I've done so far. I cannot rely on the band alone to lose the weight for me. I will NOT be one of those bandsters.
So, gimme some encouragement ladies! Gimme a verbal ass-kicking! Because this fat chick needs all the help she can get!